It's been a rough few weeks since I got sick on "vacation" and had a major increase in work issues. But, I think I'm finally on the upswing... the fever is mostly gone and the boogers are almost back to less green. Still rockin' the asthma attacks when I forget and run up the stairs too fast. So, per the doctors, no gym yet. However, I'm probably going to go within the next few days just for stress relief regardless. I need it.
I've pretty much completed the online orientation with the exception of downloading some big files and getting my writing skills beefed up a bit. I totally bombed a critical writing exercise. Some of it I attribute to not having written anything of this type in eight years and not really knowing what they were looking for... and a bit related to a 101 fever. But, now I know what the expectation is, I'm golden. I'm going to kick ass.
I have to get organized with documents and resources to get ready for NSO-Santa Barbara, four weeks from Thursday. I think I'm going to have to borrow the MacBook since I can't install anything on the work laptop and WebNex seminars are mandatory. Which I don't mind because I love that thing and might end up buying one for my next computer when the price drops... for school purposes, of course. LOL.
My taxes this year are going to rock since I'm already at over $1000 in just travel expenses, the printer, and books and school isn't even really started yet.
I'm ready to get started... mostly.
I lost two kids in eight days and am still trying to balance 37 patients. I think I've finally gotten to the burnout point... I haven't been able to grieve either of them, even as close as I was with both families. I haven't cried for either. I'm sure it will hit but between increased expectations at work, being sick as a half-dead dog, and writing papers I hit overload. We're modifying my caseload to handle a little more of the stress level. I've been trying to focus on finding things to enjoy in my daily life to keep from spitting nails or biting people that irritate me. Yes, biting.
Most people want to hit something when they get annoyed, but I tend to grind my teeth when I get frustrated and I want to bite something. I rarely do, don't worry. I just hold more tension in my jaw than in my fists/arms.
So I have to make it through this 7 hour meeting without biting anything, too.
And find something positive for today.
Good night, kiddos. Sleep tight.
And I'll publish this now before it erases it again... for the third time today.
The End for today, I have to pay attention now.
There's a reason why my facebook says "don't worry.. I only bite telemarketers." I understand the impulse all too well.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you've had the classic Dump, but take heart in the fact you've made it through it this far. The rest is slightly more delicious aged cheese.